I Was Never Good at Writing.

Hello guys,

As a newbie on Triond, I thought for a long time what my first article would be on and after a while it hit me. I would talk about writing. I have never considered myself a good writer in fact any kind of writing put me off even text messaging…:( the funny story is that when I just first learned to write I used to write a lot… on walls, tables, chairs…my mum’s car ( oh fun times:) but as I got older this habit slowly disappeared… I only wrote when I had to write

I remember when I was 16 and still had a diary I used to share my most personal thoughts and thought it would be a great experience read it years later and revisit my past thoughts everything was going well until my mum read my diary, my most precious, private thoughts. I was crushed… it’s extremely hard to explain… I felt so vulnerable… like she could see write through me… that experience had a major impact on our relationship and till this day i still cannot trust her.

I feel that no one should know another person completely; I think it ruins the mystery that everyone should have and cherish and also one should have the right to your own personal thoughts. I constantly imagine what people would say if they could enter my mind and read my thoughts. Would they still like me? Would they shun me? Hate my whole being?

What we don’t realise is that we write everyday… grocery lists, check books, emails, notes it is impossible for someone to pass the whole day without writing anything. So the question remains why do I detest it so much?

I remember when I used to key in my diary every day, I was a happier person, it cleared my thoughts I had a sense of peace.  I was walking around the whole day with so many thoughts in my head with no way to channel them.  I had to write. I was introduced to my real self. Not the self that my family, friends, lovers knew but my true being. I did not have to pretend to anyone what was put in ink in that diary was the real me, my joys, sorrows, fears, insecurities all of me.

I wish there was a machine that could write down all your thoughts….imagine that… what a massive mind map that would be.

So now, as I am writing this, I am on a journey to start writing again. Writing and loving it… Wish me good luck… and for those who would like to take the journey with you are more than welcome. I need the support….. Till next time… watch this space

Cheers,

Newbie writer