Unappreciated

Love, such an undefined word. Everyone has their own meaning, depending on how they have experienced love in their lives. Some say it hurts, some say it glows. But as of now, I can say, it can also be unappreciated.

Have you ever felt in love with the person who don’t love you back? I know it hurts. While I wrote this one, that’s what I am feeling right now. I always tell myself not to fall for him because it’s to early for me to feel this way. We don’t even talk much about ourselves whenever we have the chance to talk to each other. You’re so silent while I’m too loud. I often think we can never be and maybe it’s TRUE. But then, the time comes that we became friends. From that day on, I start to think that maybe we can be together someday. You can say I’m a crazy bitch about it, but it’s for real. It gave me hope that we’ll be together. And as days passed by. the hope that i felt grew bigger and bigger until the time that I realized I’m finally obsessed with you. But at the back of my mind, I still control my feelings towards you. I know I’m in the wrong, but how can I prevent what I am feeling right now? I tried to be close to you. I want to know more about you. I tried to make you feel that I am here for you. I gave you all the sweetness I have in me to make you feel that I do care. But suddenly, while we’re exchanging messages through phones, I noticed that I don’t feel any spark at all. I don’t even blushed after I had read your messages. Could it be the end?

I guessed I’m just tired. Tired of giving you all the love that I have but you don’t give anything in return.  Or maybe you’re just relentless of what I am feeling for you. Are you stone-hearted? I remember, someone told me that you’re not that ready to be part of a relationship for now. And I said that I’m willing to wait because I know that you’re the one for me. From the very start, even we haven’t talk before, I already knew it.  But by the way you make me feel, I guess you’re not the one. I’ll just wait for that someone who will deeply appreciate everything I do for him the way you never did.